snap.
"i stayed in business for over fifty years. its not what i would have imagined for myself. and yet. the truth is i came to like it. i helped in those who were locked out, others i helped keep out what couldn't be let in, so that they could sleep without nightmares.
then one day i was looking out the window. maybe i was contemplating the sky. put even a fool in front of a window and you'll get a spinoza. the afternoon passed, darkness sifted down. i reached for the chain on the bulb and suddenly it was as if an elephant had stepped on my heart. i fell to my knees. i thought; i didnt live forever. a minute passed. another minute. another. i clawed at the floor, pulling myself along toward the phone.
twenty-five percent of my heart muscle died. it took time to recover, and i never went back to work."
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